Yep, I'm playing around with things. I was able to post a pic to my blog directly from my phone. Okay, so my basement is a dump right now. I'll get around to it.

It's a new year???
Mood:  celebratory
Now Playing: Nothing specific.
Topic: General
Inspired by my friend ChillyCub, I'm putting my New Years resolutions here because it seems like something very appropriate to share.

1. Get my MCSE 2003 with Security.

*If you know what that is, you get a gold star on the friend chart.*

2. Learn Japanese to the point where I can read it and understand a basic conversation.

*A lot of people have questioned me on this one. I'll explain it in an entry on a later date.*

3. Build my friendship base within the "Bear/Cub" community.

*I feel at home with these types of guys. What can I say?*

4. Maintain this blog a LOT more.

*I need to share me with the world if the world wants to share itself with me.*

5. Come up with more goals.

*Because one should always have goals they're trying to reach.*

So that's a start. My brain is churning with ideas so I'll put them out soon. See. I'm already working on #4.

Like anything you do, as anyone you are.
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge
Topic: me and people
I know it's been a long time. I'm sorry, so sorry.

I finally got my XBOX 360 just 2 days before Christmas `05. It's a wonderfully beautiful machine although the power brick on it scares me a bit. I may have to reinforce the living room floor to support the weight of it. I'm such a game junkie.

So I haven't spent much time improving myself lately, just thinking about improving myself.

I got a call from Jessica (Yes, THE Jessica) tonight. I about shit myself hearing her voice on the other end of the phone. I've been thinking about her and our many exploits lately. I definitely need to get out of the house more and I'll have to start by visiting her. It's her B-Day this week and I feel like a horrible friend for not having kept in touch with her.

What happened to the social side of me? I'm not being social because I want to work on me but I haven't been working on me so what do I do now? God, I wish I had more time in the day.

Thank you and God bless, Rosa.
Mood:  sad
Topic: General
I just found out a little while ago that Rosa Parks died tonight at the age of 92. What else can I say but she was an integral part of the civil rights movement and I know that my life would be drastically different if she would have given up that seat on the bus. She spoke out for human rights and opened Americas eyes. Thank you, Rosa. God bless and rest in peace.

Where have I been...
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Coheed and Cambria - Good Appollo, I'm Burning Star IV: From Fear Through the Eyes of Madness
Topic: General
Okay. A lot's been going on and I haven't had the heart to update the page for a while and there has also been a lack of time for updates the past couple of weeks.

Jonathan and I are not together at this point. We'll just leave it at "Let's see where we're at when I'm ready to move to DC."

I've been covering for Pat at work for 2 weeks. I've been working doubles and it's wearing me out. Luckily he'll be back next Tuesday so I'll get a chance to get back to my life.

Am I a whiny little bitch? Probably. Oh well. I'll work on it.

It's all about this and that.
Mood:  sharp
Now Playing: Coheed and Cambria - Good Apollo I'm Burning Star IV Volume I
Topic: General
Here's the "This" bit:

I've been PMS'ing like you wouldn't believe. I definitely have monthly hormonal cycles. I was REALLY irritable the first few days this week. My mood has greatly improved though. Everything at work was setting me off. I'm much more mellow today and ready to take on all the challenges work has in store for me right now.

Here's the "That" bit:

That I'm so psyched up to clean this weekend is friggin' amazing!! I just have this crazy impulse to clean and organize so that I can feel more comfortable in my space. I think I need that so that I can actually be creative. It's hard to be creative, i.e. write, draw, build brainish knowledge type things, when you don't have a clean place to do it. Maybe I'll even get another good chunk of the web page taken care of. I have some great ideas about that. Keep your eyes open cause whatever creative outlet I seek, I'm sure I'll get at least some of it in electronic format for your viewing pleasure.

TV. Good TV. Lost on TV. Lost good. Mmmmmmm. Lost-y goodness.

If you don't watch it yet. Start.

Getting there
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Coheed and Cambria - In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth 3
Topic: General
Well, I managed to make a couple adjustments to the site tonight. Added a "Currently" picture section at the bottom of the homepage so that people can see what kind of crazy disheveled state I'm in at any given moment. I'll update it whenever I damned well please.

God, I miss that silly stud muffin above. I desperately want to just hold him and feel like everything in the world is perfect. The loneliness really hurts. I can't wait to cart my fat ass down to DC again to see him.

I had to cover for Steph at work today cause she's still sick. I just want her to get better soon. Both for considerate reasons and selfish ones. Getting up at the asscrack of dawn is not an easy thing.

Burning Desire!!!
Mood:  special
Now Playing: Coheed and Cambria - Second Stage Turbine Blade
Topic: Feelings
Man, I'm feeling insanely creative. I just don't know how to get it all out. Working on the webpage has definitely helped but I feel like I need to do so much more.

Why am I always so lazy though. I really need to get on the ball and get working on something. Anything that's productive and anything that's creative. I'm going stir crazy in my own brain and it's killing me. Argh.

I need to feel like a winner. I'm not feeling bad, really. Just need to feel like things are going right for me.

Well, I'm gonna cut this one short before my brain explodes.

Right upside the brain
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Coheed and Cambria - Second Stage Turbine Blade
Topic: General
Well, It's definitely been a LONG LONG time since I've written. I've been working hard on redesigning the site. A lot of things have gone on since I've last written. I'll try to get into them more later.

I'm so friggin' tired!!! I haven't been sleeping at all lately. It's really starting to take a toll on me. Well, I'm getting out early from work tomorrow because I have a dentist appointment so I'll come home and take a nap afterwards. Hopefully that helps but I doubt it. :(

Things with Jonathan are good. I love him so much. It's just so damned tough being so far away from him. It makes my heart sad.

Well, I'm going to cut it short for tonight and I'll try to update again real soon.

Time for another restless night.

Damn, it's been a while.
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Tori Amos
Topic: General
It's definitely been a while. So, let's see. What's new?

I got my nips re-pierced. Pics will soon be posted on the site for all to gaze upon the glory of the nip rings.

Jonathan's moved back to DC. I'm sad :( I miss him a whole bunch and stuff. He's so cute and sweet and nice. And he puts up with my stupid ass. :P

This past weekend I went to hang out with Mike, a friend of Jonathan and me. He's cool. Tori, Manson, goth boy. Well, I was telling him about the Manson show I went to a year and a half ago in Portland (Maine for those of you who don't know that Orgeon isn't the only one). I was like, "Yeah, it was a great show. I remember standing in line for forever and talking with these other people that were in line and there was this one guy who had an extra ticket and was trying to give it away but nobody believed him. They were all just going inside and buying one instead." Mike just looked at me and said, "Dude, that was me." I about crapped myself. It hit me like a ton of bricks that the people we were talking to were him and his friends Amanda and Casey.

What a small, messed up world we live in.

But it proves something. Manson does make the world go round and bring people together with a warm fuzzy feeling.

I'll be going down to DC in June to visit Jonathan and Patrick. I'm so excited. It's going to be so much fun. One more month. I'll be sure to get lots of pics while I'm there. I'll try to post those on the site too.

I finally cleaned my bedroom. With a little motivation from Gin. :) I completely gutted out all the crap and cleaned the living hell out of it. I'm going to work hard at keeping it that way too. I threw out so much crap. Six lawn bags just for starters. There's a whole lot more that I still need to sort thru. I'll get there.

Well, that's enough from me for now. It's not that I don't love you blog. It's just that I have a short attention span.